Possibilities (with a capital P)
When I was a child one of my favourite songs we used to sing in school was "I am a promise, I am a possibility, I am a promise with a capital P...". Today some of my favourite songs include "I Hope you Dance", and "Unwritten". I guess you see a theme here. I am a believer in potential; my potential, my child's potential, your potential.
This characteristic of mine is both a strength and a weakness. It is the main reason I got involved in the wrong type of relationships.. I fell in love with the potential instead of who the person was at that moment. I learned the hard way that people have to see their own potential to reach it. I cannot make them get there. So I better be in love with who they are now... even if I see potential, so that if that potential remains unrealized, I can continue to love and respect them.
As usual, I digress. Another problem with seeing my own possibilities is that I can become overwhelmed with choices. There are so many possibilities, am I currently choosing the right one? Aren't there other things I could and should be doing, giving, accomplishing? Because of this I tend to be restless... a restless soul, always searching for my purpose, my place, my passion. I don't think I have found it yet. I don't believe in "the one", but like relationships, there are several "right ones". and when you find one of them you'll know.
That's how I feel about my husband. After finding him, I am no longer searching or restless in matters of the heart. Yet I remain this way in my career. This is further complicated by the fact that I have to take my family into account with regard to my lifestyle and career decisions.
So what is this post about really? I am restless, I am searching for my life purpose, place and passion and wondering if I am just expecting too much, if I need to make the best of what I have...but I don't think so. Not after writing this through (amazing how blogging helps). So now that I know, I will just redouble efforts to find where I am supposed to be, while at the same time appreciating where I am. And I will continue to explore my possibilities until I find my purpose, my passion, my place- with a capital P.
This characteristic of mine is both a strength and a weakness. It is the main reason I got involved in the wrong type of relationships.. I fell in love with the potential instead of who the person was at that moment. I learned the hard way that people have to see their own potential to reach it. I cannot make them get there. So I better be in love with who they are now... even if I see potential, so that if that potential remains unrealized, I can continue to love and respect them.
As usual, I digress. Another problem with seeing my own possibilities is that I can become overwhelmed with choices. There are so many possibilities, am I currently choosing the right one? Aren't there other things I could and should be doing, giving, accomplishing? Because of this I tend to be restless... a restless soul, always searching for my purpose, my place, my passion. I don't think I have found it yet. I don't believe in "the one", but like relationships, there are several "right ones". and when you find one of them you'll know.
That's how I feel about my husband. After finding him, I am no longer searching or restless in matters of the heart. Yet I remain this way in my career. This is further complicated by the fact that I have to take my family into account with regard to my lifestyle and career decisions.
So what is this post about really? I am restless, I am searching for my life purpose, place and passion and wondering if I am just expecting too much, if I need to make the best of what I have...but I don't think so. Not after writing this through (amazing how blogging helps). So now that I know, I will just redouble efforts to find where I am supposed to be, while at the same time appreciating where I am. And I will continue to explore my possibilities until I find my purpose, my passion, my place- with a capital P.
I am totally loving this blog. Many of your 'struggles' are really resonating with me and some of my personal struggles. I look forward to reading many more of blogs, and being inspired as I too strive to find my place and achieve my Potential. Good luck with find the right career!
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